This past weekend I headed to Dallas, Texas for the NPFL Combine. For those of you who haven’t heard of the NPFL (which is most everyone outside of the CrossFit world), this is a professional fitness league. It’s basically professional CrossFit in a team setting. There are currently five teams in the organization and three more that should be finalized in the next few weeks. The League is hosting four combines across the country to pick athletes for the official draft this summer. I was invited to the Dallas combine to come tryout. How cool is that!
I emailed them prior to make sure it was OK for me to participate even though I am pregnant. I knew going in I was going for the experience, not to compete for a spot. I got the OK from them to participate and decided to just go for it. Why not? I wasn’t going to do anything stupid. I wasn’t going to push myself. I just wanted to be there and know that I put myself out there.
I showed up Friday for the girls combine day. The set up was pretty cool. There were different sections for different types of tests. We had all day to go through as many stations as we wanted. My plan was to hit six or seven of them and cheer on the other ladies. I was going to do muscles ups, chest to bar pull ups, double unders, pistols, farmers carry and the overhead squat. I had toyed with the idea of doing the shuttle run and WOD, but was going to see how the day went before I made the decision.
When I walked in I saw a group of my lady CrossFit friends. I have so many rock star friends…it is crazy. I heard a “Oh my gosh you really came” and then a lot of congratulations. It was pretty cool. It is so fun to look at the group of girls that were there and how a bunch of us started competing together at the same time. Kara Paslay was the only other Oklahoma gal that was there. It was wonderful to spend the day with her. She absolutely crushed it.
I got to hang out with my friends Candice Ruiz and Holly Mata who I have known since 2010. They have both been to the Games and are freaking amazing. Candice and I met at the Oklahoma sectional in Tulsa and Holly and I met at the 2010 regional. We were all laughing about how far we had come since then. In 2010 Holly couldn’t do a muscle up and used a sticky tape on the rings to see if it helped. She said didn’t. Now she is a Games athlete and all around rock star. She power snatched 165# on Friday. POWER SNATCHED. That’s all I have to say about Holly. I met the incomparable Kat Anderson at the 2011 Regional in Chicago when she was still at CrossFit Omaha. Now she is in Texas tearing up the South Central region. We had a good time.
We had no timeline. No schedule. It was up to each of us individually to do what we wanted, when we wanted. I started with double unders. I did 125 in ninety seconds. I did my first 82 unbroken. Not bad. I took some longer breaks than normal because I don’t breathe the way I did five months ago. Next up was muscle ups. I got five in ninety seconds. I’m still just so happy I can do them and string a few together. Muscle Ups have gotten really awkward in the last few weeks. In Open WOD 14.4 I did five muscle ups with 1:23 left to go in the WOD. It’s crazy to think about how different it is now. Five muscle ups fresh felt like a chore compared to how they felt at the end of a WOD four weeks ago.
The overhead squat was the only lift I decided to do. I chose it because it is my favorite lift and it is the one I feel the most comfortable with right now. I don’t have to strain with it the way I have to do with any other squat or deadlift. I have squatted 195# for a single and last year at Regionals I squatted 185# for a double. After overhead squatting 165# on Friday I went for 170#. I didn’t get below parallel and then missed it two more times. It’s really hard right now because my mind is having a hard time getting over the fact that my body can’t do the things it used to. 165# is a great number on an overhead squat, it is just one that I am used to doing for multiple reps. I feel like I’m two different people when it comes to this stuff. I want to be really safe, and I am being very safe. On the other side, I’m insanely competitive. It was hard to be with the girls I’m used to being competitive with and not being able to hold a candle to them. I’m not used to that and I’m not sure I will ever get used to it. This is my 165# OHS. Easy breezy.
We had lunch, did a lot of laughing and then went on to finish up our day. I started the afternoon with pistols. These were fun. I didn’t get a crazy number. I think 17 on each side in forty five seconds. The plan was to do chest to bar pulls ups and the farmers carry next. I started warming up for my pull ups and felt something go weird in my shoulder. It kind of shocked me. I stood there for a bit shaking it around, got back on the bar, and couldn’t get the pull to get my chest to the bar. My arm was tingly and my hand felt super funny. I was so angry. They had felt so great that morning. I should have just done them then. I decided to skip them and call it a day. I didn’t want to put up a super sub par number or injure myself.
I struggled all day with feeling like I shouldn’t have been there. I joked about my numbers being low and unimpressive. I didn’t do a good job of really owning the fact that I was 19 weeks pregnant and doing what I was capable of doing. I kept thinking, “Well, if I was really myself I would have done this…” It was frustrating. Kody showed up for the afternoon and tried his best to be encouraging. Sometimes I’m not very nice and I may not have been as sweet and appreciative of his support as I should have been.
I joked all weekend about just being there for the shirt. I got invited to Sunday to participate in the trial team events. I declined to come back because I knew there were going to be a lot of things I could not do and I did not want to hold up the team. It was pretty exciting to get asked back and I did get another cool shirt!
I did the NPFL for the same reason I went through The Open. I love this stuff. I want to be a part of everything I can be a part of even though I’m pregnant. I want to keep my life as normal as I can, however, I know things are always changing. Each week it gets a little different. I’m getting a little bump. It’s so weird, scary and exciting. I look at myself now and think, “Oh, I’m really pregnant!” Some days that feels like a good thing and some days it makes me feel really insecure. I know I’m doing all the right things. I’m being very smart and very cautious. It’s hard to not want to push the envelope. I got so sad watching girls do handstands, handstand push ups and bar muscle ups. I haven’t and wont touch those movements again for at least five months. Baby K is happy about that! We find out the sex of Baby K next week. I get the full baby body scan which I’m a little anxious about, but confident it will all be OK. I still love my support system with all of my heart. I simply have the greatest family and friends in the world.